Okay, catching up startingggggg NOW
1.) I feel slightly bad that I havent blogged in so long...SLIGHTLY. I've just been extra busy, extra stressed, extra frustrated...the usual. But, Im happy to say that things have been pretty good overall. School is a annoying the hell out of me and I am sooooooooooooo excited that in a couple weeks this semester will be O-V-E-R. Initially I was going to take one summer class but for a few reasons I changed my mind. Which translates to me having an awesome summer (so I hope). Im planning a roadtrip with a few coworkers of mine. Ive got a couple trips with my husband planned. And a handful of other events with my younger and older siblings. GASP...I may actually have fun this summer! Me? Fun? Havent really correlated those two words in a while...but the concept seems promising.
2.) Ive been in the gym. Ive been playing some major tennis. AND Ive been eating healthy. Which means I have given up my sweet addiction...icecream (teardrop). Not only is swimsuit season upon us, but I am set on keeping this body of mine fit and healthy for as long as possible. I still really dont understand how people can be in the health profession and KNOW the many habits that can kill them early and still do them. How can you teach a patient healthy habits when you dont follow them yourself? Im just sayin. Ignorance kills but apparently so does knowledge.
3.) I lost my wedding ring. My husband bought me a MUCH better one today. Probably only because I was getting hit on so much lol. Okay no...its because he is a sweetheart. :-)
4.) I have a new phone! Sprint Samsung Moment. Touchscreen. Android platform. I absolutely LOVE it. It is by far the best phone I have ever owned. Many times better than my old crackberry. Im pretty addicted...its like a freakin gameboy for adults! Lol.
5.) Oh yea...Im not tripping on people anymore. For F'in REAL this time. If you feel the need to ignore an attempt of mine at friendship just know it will NOT be offered again. Yeah...not EVER. Lifes too short to pause trying to befriend the world. Last time I checked friendship was supposed to flow naturally. Or not flow at all.
6.) Hmm...back to happy thoughts. Im loving this new sense of freedom in me. I want to do sooo many different things. I want to change my hair so many different ways. I want to travel. I want to redecorate my house. Im just ready to change. Im ready to experience things foreign to me. Im ready to grow.
7.) I really wonder if my life will ever go back to normal post nursing school. Ive become this frantic, constantly on edge person. Totally not me. I feel like Im trading my sanity for the opportunity to help people. I guess thats worth it right? As long as I dont become like some of the nurses Ive met who "eat their own young." Total jerks. Please God...anything but that! Really.
8.) Okay...I need to get back to studying. I have 2 exams next week. And 2 more the week after. HUGE exams. So needless to say I probably should NOT have been blogging. But I felt the need to catch up with whoever actually takes the time to read this. Sorry this was so random, but if you havent figured it out by now thats kinda my style of thought. Ive got a billion things on my mind at any given moment. Just be happy I can write my thoughts somewhat coherently.
Kelley :-)
Showing posts with label nursing school. Show all posts
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Thursday, April 8, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Catching UP
Dear God!!! I reallllly cannot believe that i have not posted anything on this blog in months!!! Oh wait, yes I can.....im a freakin mom, wife, fulltime goofer (aka nurses aide), AND a student nurse. Okay...so thats my excuse...I was busy so I didnt blog, lol.
Anywho, lets see, where to begin????
So, I started school aug 24, 2009 and i can genuinely say i loved my first semester. It was hard balancing everything and to be completely honest initially I put my life on hold to adjust to my school load. That included me putting my already tattered marriage on the backbunner. In hindsight that was a bad call because I really hurt my husband and a few other people close to me. Im thankful my husband loves me enough to forgive me for that VERY rough patch and still move forward with me. I lost a few friends in the process (not really because of school) and thats all good. IMHO, anybody that decides not to be my friend was kinda not really my friend to begin with. Right? Or maybe thats just what i tell myself to get over the trauma....probably so. But in the end I always have my family...and that is what matters.
But, getting back to the subject, I met some pretty awesome people in school that I hope will prove to be lifetime friends. I could name names but the list is short so the possibility of mass people being excluded are 100% guarenteed...and they know who they are anyway lol.
I made it out of the first semester with a solid B average which I cannot complain about. I am thankful that i made it and God showed me how to balance my life in the process. Life is all about balance. A complex juggling act! And Im becoming an expert juggler.
My beautiful niece was born in October. I love her so much!!! Its amazing how infants make u value life. I was a newborn, then, I was a toddler, so on and so forth. And look at me now. Im an adult full of purpose. So every child born is an adult full of purpose just waiting to happen. It makes u wanna do as much as u can to help children succeed. And I see both sides of the spectrum everyday. I work in the Pediatric ICU where I see infants and children die all of the time. Its very sad to see a purpose taken away from this world before it has ever had a chance to make itself known. Hopefully, I can use the platform of being a Nurse to make a difference.
Balancing work has been extremely difficult. I am now at the point where I stopped counting the days I wanted to quit. Not just because Im tired from school...I just get tired of attitudes. The nursing community is very clearly majority women and with women come gossip, jealousy, pettiness, immaturity, and so many different complexes!!! Sometimes i just need a vacation to regroup because being amongst all the nonsense sometimes rubs off and i dont even know who I am anymore. In addition to that, I tend to get very close to the wrong people for whatever reason. Now that people have been stripped from me (as uusal), Im content just keeping to myself now. And at the same time im bubbling with frustration. Ah...the JOYs of the contradictions in life, lol.
There have been a lot of changes in my household as well. My 17 yr old sister went back home. Both of my brothers were living with me. Now its just one of my brothers and his girlfriend and daughter that stay with me, my husband, and dinah. It often feels like "The Cosby Show." But i love my family and nothing makes me feel better than being around them. I think when it is actually just me, Velte, and Dinah one day Ill feel so odd. Or maybe Ill feel liberated...i guess ill see when (or if) that happens.
So.....now Im in my second semester that is rumored to be much tougher than last. So far Id say its just a lot more content. Not hard....challenging. And i LOVE a challenge. But, we shall see what i really feel about it as the semester progressively gets more complex. Im ready for the ride...or drive...whatever lol.
Hmmm there is probably somethings Im leaving out... Oh yea Im proud to say i have added yet another tattoo to my collection. To my husbands dismay i have a firm fixation on unique body art. But I told him I was done so imma try to stick to that...we'll see what happens lol.
Chipolte is my stress reliever. And icecream is my sanity. Thank god for a fast metabolism!!!
Anywho, lets see, where to begin????
So, I started school aug 24, 2009 and i can genuinely say i loved my first semester. It was hard balancing everything and to be completely honest initially I put my life on hold to adjust to my school load. That included me putting my already tattered marriage on the backbunner. In hindsight that was a bad call because I really hurt my husband and a few other people close to me. Im thankful my husband loves me enough to forgive me for that VERY rough patch and still move forward with me. I lost a few friends in the process (not really because of school) and thats all good. IMHO, anybody that decides not to be my friend was kinda not really my friend to begin with. Right? Or maybe thats just what i tell myself to get over the trauma....probably so. But in the end I always have my family...and that is what matters.
But, getting back to the subject, I met some pretty awesome people in school that I hope will prove to be lifetime friends. I could name names but the list is short so the possibility of mass people being excluded are 100% guarenteed...and they know who they are anyway lol.
I made it out of the first semester with a solid B average which I cannot complain about. I am thankful that i made it and God showed me how to balance my life in the process. Life is all about balance. A complex juggling act! And Im becoming an expert juggler.
My beautiful niece was born in October. I love her so much!!! Its amazing how infants make u value life. I was a newborn, then, I was a toddler, so on and so forth. And look at me now. Im an adult full of purpose. So every child born is an adult full of purpose just waiting to happen. It makes u wanna do as much as u can to help children succeed. And I see both sides of the spectrum everyday. I work in the Pediatric ICU where I see infants and children die all of the time. Its very sad to see a purpose taken away from this world before it has ever had a chance to make itself known. Hopefully, I can use the platform of being a Nurse to make a difference.
Balancing work has been extremely difficult. I am now at the point where I stopped counting the days I wanted to quit. Not just because Im tired from school...I just get tired of attitudes. The nursing community is very clearly majority women and with women come gossip, jealousy, pettiness, immaturity, and so many different complexes!!! Sometimes i just need a vacation to regroup because being amongst all the nonsense sometimes rubs off and i dont even know who I am anymore. In addition to that, I tend to get very close to the wrong people for whatever reason. Now that people have been stripped from me (as uusal), Im content just keeping to myself now. And at the same time im bubbling with frustration. Ah...the JOYs of the contradictions in life, lol.
There have been a lot of changes in my household as well. My 17 yr old sister went back home. Both of my brothers were living with me. Now its just one of my brothers and his girlfriend and daughter that stay with me, my husband, and dinah. It often feels like "The Cosby Show." But i love my family and nothing makes me feel better than being around them. I think when it is actually just me, Velte, and Dinah one day Ill feel so odd. Or maybe Ill feel liberated...i guess ill see when (or if) that happens.
So.....now Im in my second semester that is rumored to be much tougher than last. So far Id say its just a lot more content. Not hard....challenging. And i LOVE a challenge. But, we shall see what i really feel about it as the semester progressively gets more complex. Im ready for the ride...or drive...whatever lol.
Hmmm there is probably somethings Im leaving out... Oh yea Im proud to say i have added yet another tattoo to my collection. To my husbands dismay i have a firm fixation on unique body art. But I told him I was done so imma try to stick to that...we'll see what happens lol.
Chipolte is my stress reliever. And icecream is my sanity. Thank god for a fast metabolism!!!
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